money troubles

We are in the process of buying a new car at the moment and i am feeling so stressed. Our old car is quickly fading away and we need to act now.... but i am so worried about the finances. I am mindful that we only have a few more years when the kids will be home full time and so we want to get a car we can travel around in - interstate holidays and the like - and know we will make it to our destinations and back without any issues. But then there is the money... Having 2 pre-teen boys keeps the bank balance drained most weeks. Its all about choices i suppose - what we need to give up in order to afford a nice new (used) car.

I probably just need to rethink our spending strategy. We need this new car and I just have to accept that rather than stressing about it. Maybe i can pick up a few more shifts at work??

reflecting

Stephanie: Today i have been considering my life. I would love to be content with just parenting my boys and homeschooling happily in our little community.... But I feel there is so much more to me, to life, to being a responsible participant on this earth. I want to be involved in peaceful solutions for the earth. I want to toss around great ideas and see them fulfilled..... I want to move and renovate and grow gardens and help my neighbours with their pergola and go out for coffee..... and in all the little decisions i faced today I wondered whether it is better to be content and struggling, or to go with the flow but do it tough (if you undertand that ??!!).

Who knows... for now i will just reflect.

Christmas 2005 with my mum, hubby and kids.